introspective insights

I dunno what introspective means at the top of my head. It just came to me :)

I'm feeling tops right now, even though I'm in the middle of exams. Finished my 2nd today and next one is Tuesday, so feeling sort of free tonight. So free I'm clearing the iBook to reinstall Tiger. Hahah, I'm a geek.

OH GUESS WHAT

I'm even more geeky, I discovered that Mac OSX has a speech commands thingy, and I've been mucking around on it all night!

Dan: "Computer... What time is it?"
iBook: "It's 10:10"

Woooott! :)

In other news, I got a new pair of shoes. Hehe, kathmandu sale time once again.. I can't afford them, but my mum got them for my bday! :) Here is a pic


A dilemma I have though, is trying to work out what to do about a job interview. The date for it is on the 23rd of July at 10am or 12pm. Its also the day Markets getaway starts! eek! The dilemmas, argg. I'd better contact them to see how long it will go. I'm not quite sure how getting this job will go though, since its so late in holidays I wouldn't start until uni went back, and I'm not sure if I'd have time for it... Ah well, it's in God's hands, He'll help me :)

Now, back to tinkering with the iBook

-d

streaming video tune: Brooke Fraser "Lifeline"

woooot

God is tops
Simple as that
Mike prayed that God would speak to me in my quiet time today (Sat) and he was right, I found Psalm 51, and especially verse 17

"The sacrifice you want is a broken spirit.
A broken and repentant heart, O God,
you will not despise."

That has been especially true of me lately. And I rejoice in the fact that I can only depend on one alone, and He's tops :)

Forever and ever amen (I love that line)

-d

iPod tune: Relient K "For the Moments I Feel Faint"

"hello? anyone around?"

heh, guess i shouldn't have expected too much
think i'll withdraw into a shell for a while. just as well, silly exams

just.raw.me

I'm currently spending the last half hour I have as a 22 yr old alone on the train with only pete murray's deliriously happy music to keep me company.. An end to my 23rd year on earth that fairly typifies me to this point sadly. Alas, this post isn't all like this, but it might. I apologise in advance.. I need to get this out. I am genuinely happy about what God has done in my life in the past year, don't get me wrong.. truly amazing

I guess I'm still insecure about the fact not many go out of their way to take an interest in my life..i know some do, but its few and far between considering how many ppl i know..Why should I care? I ask that myself sometimes.. This stems from deep seated worries, so nyeh

What I'm worried about is the fact I'll probly spend my 23rd birthday alone and bored (tho bored is my own fault :).. ppl have most likely forgotten.. I hope it isn't true, but if it is then.. what can I do? I've had nearly 23 years of making really close friends then losing them or growing apart due to distance or life.. Really close friends are usually defined as me being close enough to talk about my deep ideas and issues, but not that much vice versa.. I've largely suppressed this thing from crippling me but it is so discouraging and downright painful at times.. Is it the calling God has placed on me? A means to grow me? Perhaps. It doesn't stop it from cutting deep though..

Hopefully the next year will be better, but precedent is a cruel thing.. Theres a purpose in why I've been through this and I am thankful I know the friends I do, they are a blessing.. Its probly down to me not making enough time for them and something I'll work on in this 24th year of my life.. I've said how it's the cool age..let's hope I'm right :)

(Once again, sorry for its depressive undertones..)

-d



Discman tunes: Pete Murray "Feeler"

hi ho, hi ho, a bludging we will go

How tremendous
I've spent the past 1.5 weeks doing absolutely nothing, even though I have exams to study for.. Yes, they are late, yes, they don't start for another 1.5 weeks still, but argggg. I feel so unproductive. Hooooowwwww tragic.

In better news, I'm ALMOST 23!!!
Oooohh *dramatic shiver*

I feel almost special!

Okay, extra special.. I know we're all special...

But wednesday marks my ascent to the... *dramatic pause* c o o l a g e

ehehe. For exactly a year, I will officially be cool. Old enough to be mature, but young enough to not be over the hill. Once you're 24 and over, its all downhill.. Well, this is all according to my rather immature theories :) ironic ay, heehee

As for what presents I'll get. Pfft, I doubt I'll get many if any. Ah well, I can't afford to get anything for my friends anyway for their bdays :(

Being a cool age will be a present in itself :) Hopefully I can get a dinner organised for after exams with uni friends and church friends (separate ones probly)

Oh the music front, there are some awweesome cds just come out.
Foo Fighters - In Your Honour
Coldplay - X & Y
I looooveee that new Fooeys single "Best Of You". Soo cool
And Rob Thomas's new solo single is pretty cool. Well, I like it anyways

And as for other stuff I need to get
Pete Murray - Feeler
Brooke Fraser - What To Do With Daylight
Relient K - Anatomy and Two Lefts
Some Jack Johnson cds

But even more exciting news... MOTOR ACE ARE BACK!!!!
They have their new single coming out soon (or it just came out) as well as a new album, "Animal"! Their home page has some samples of the new stuff as well as an explanation of where they went the past couple of years. Welcome back boys. We missed you terribly.

Wooot. music = yay! I neeeeed to geettt loosstt in the mooosic..

ahem

-d

tune: Gladiator soundtrack "Track 14 :P"

a r g

hmm

arg

pretty much sums me up at this point

it could be contributed by the footy, but i'm pretty much used to the bombers underperforming..

no, what is causing this is just an utter helplessness... what does God want me to do...? why am i feeling this? should i do something about it?

ARG

time to have a long conversation with my guitar..

-d